It’s Monday and I feel like Garfield.
On Friday, we were having a great time here in the office, well, at least the people in the research department. I was in my element and they just couldn’t resist my kakulitan at kabaklaan. I felt like I’m finding another family here. The “kids” are getting submissive to me (yeah Raqz, the “ate” factor again).
But as I entered the office this morning, I suddenly felt so low, sad, and bewildered.
I wanted to do better than what is expected of me not just at work but in life. I’m trying to enjoy myself and the good things I’m blessed with but still there’s a “certain sadness” (a song my sister loved) lurking in my heart. I strive to be happy and just take things lightly but I have those moments and I simply cannot understand why.
I was talking to Raqz last weekend. I never realized how much I missed my friend. We’ve been seatmates for 6 years and been travel buddies since. I missed PDI. I miss all my friends: Sha, Sha at the fourth, Tin, Insan, even Normandy and Alden, Myelene...But as I look back, I was no longer happy and I didn’t see any reason for me to stay except of course for financial considerations but I’m quite happy with it now.
Geez, I don’t know what’s happening to me. I don’t have the energy, the willpower…lowbat ako.
